vent
someone keeps lighting fireworks in my neighborhood. I'm not in a good mood rn. got angry towards family even though they weren't at fault for anything. but I'm just not able to navigate conversations or situations rn in a sensible manner. its hard sometimes when its all your used to, conforming and people-pleasing nonstop so i suppose it was only a matter of time before i got tired of it. just made some food that took forever to make and my nephew didnt like it so i yelled at him to theow it away. why? i could've just chosen not to respond, and saved the food for later. why take my anger out on an innocent bystander? but i guess sometimes i just feel like my efforts aren't appreciated enough, or even seen at all. i dont know. i dont want to be a mean bitter person but sometimes im just tired of keeping this facade of being the nice accommodating daughter/caretaker. sometimes i feel like i have no identity outside of this.