by the way
i think I'm going to transition. as in hormone therapy as in going on T. and eventually.... surgery. eventually. if that's even feasibly possible in the future. i hate myself right now and it hurts a lot. i feel weary, worn down by the side of me constantly telling me how much i hate myself how much i hate my looks and how others perceive me so i dont know. I'll give it a try and hope that voice can shut the fuck up.