augh idk
got a haircut two days ago that almost gave me a mental breakdown. its not even that bad now that I've lived with it for 2 days but every time i remember the moment the lady cut the length off my entire body tenses up. i need to learn to speak up when I'm upset. im sad because this haircut is short its almost boylike but because it accentuates my soft jawline i just look more womanly than anything else.
also i think i might apply for jobs again. i don't know if it's a good idea. but I'm tired of this current one being that it's entirely tied around my family. i just want to free myself of the guilt i feel every day for not wanting to be around them. wish me luck.